Goodnight Chelsea
Our precious little princess, you will be missed.
She passed peacefully shortly before we awoke on the morning after Thanksgiving, 2004; she was still warm when we found her. We laid her to rest a few hours later, on a soft bed of autumn leaves deep in the ground under the bunny bench, where she shall never be disturbed. She was 8-1/2 years old, and spent all but her first 3 months with us. She was my constant companion, as she lived in my laboratory where I worked daily- sometimes 14 hours a day. She was the best little friend that I could ever have had. Whenever I entered the room I'd have no idea whether she would come sliding, spinning up to my feet expectant of a treat, or if she would scamper up to me and flop on her side for petting. No matter how over my head with work I was, she could come sit beside my chair, stand up on her hind legs & I would stop for a minute- forgetting all of my cares, to scritch her cheek & feed her a few oats. She would then hop merrily away, and I would continue my work feeling a much lighter load. What a fresh and delightful little bunny she was.
Two of my most favorite books when I was a child were The Tale of Peter Rabbit, and The Velveteen Rabbit. Christina shares my love for those stories, and I have read them to her many, many times. Chelsea was indeed a very special bunny, and I'll tell you why, just as I told my daughter this morning after we watched the videotape of The Velveteen Rabbit:
"You know, when I was a child, I had a very special plush bunny toy that I loved very much. On the day that I was born, my dad brought him to me in the hospital. Here, I have a picture of when I was one year old, with my bunny. I loved that little bunny so much, that most of his fur was worn off by the time I was 8 or 10 years old. (Child is starry eyed.) When I grew up, I never forgot about my bunny, though I did think that he was long gone. One day though, I found him in a box that had been packed away long, long ago. What a surprise it was, to see my old friend again, to hold him in my hands, to love & cuddle him again. Would you like to see him? He is 43 years old and very fragile, so I store him in this plastic bag to keep him safe. Would you like to hold him? (Child takes rabbit, pets it & traces the bald patches on his material, very deep in thought) Yes, this is the very rabbit that I had when I was a child. It was not long after I found him again, that we found Chelsea and brought her home. And you know what? All of the time that we have had Chelsea, I believed with all of my heart that SHE was my Velveteen Rabbit, that she came to life because of the love that I had for this bunny when I was a child, and even now. (Child pauses in thought, and cries on my shoulder for some time) Now, I know that it is so very hard that we have lost our Princess Chelsea, but like the story says, "All endings are but a new beginning". I believe (pausing while child gets all starry eyed again) that Chelsea needed to live in a child's dreams again, she needed to be loved in the way that only a child could, as I loved this plush bunny toy long, long ago. Her spirit is certainly inside of us, and always will be. And, I think that part of her spirit is inside of a little bunny... one that gets placed gently on a little girl's pillow & tucked lovingly under her sheet every morning when that little girl makes her bed. (Child cries long and hard, I hug her to me, rock, pat & soothe her. Finally, she goes to her room and returns with a very special, furry little friend who is very dear to her heart. The two plush toys play gently and silently together for a while, then I touch my bunny's nose, then his heart. I then touch her bunny's nose, and his heart. Three words are spoken, that I'm sure she will remember for the rest of her life: "It is done".)"
Goodnight my precious little one, you have lived in my heart all of my life, and you will live on in the hearts of children forever.
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